I Am Sanctuary Girl

An Interview At Sanctuary Girl Grand Social

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On June 14, 2019 over 100 ambassadors from Sanctuary Girl gathered for our first annual conference, which we affectionally called “Grand Social”. Our company is a direct sales company like no other, and this conference was a conference like none other. Friendships were formed, aha moments occurred, lives were saved, and healing began.

On Sunday, there was an on stage segment celebrating the seven women who were featured in the Sanctuary Girl spring/summer 2019 catalog. One by one, I watched the six women prior to me being interviewed on the stage, in a state of anxiety wondering what I would be asked and what I would say.

Sanctuary Girl Spring/Summer 2019 Ambassador Spotlight

Sanctuary Girl Spring/Summer 2019 Ambassador Spotlight

I had the privilege of being interviewed by a dear friend Cheryl Swingle, who I have known for the last 5 years. Cheryl is the Chief Igniting Officer of Luminary4Women , a life and business coach and motivational speaker and a dear friend who really knows my story. As I walked onto the stage, I knew she had the ability to hone in on any number of emotional parts of my story. As she began to ask me my question, there was a split second where I knew I could either chose to take the easy way out and only share a glimpse of my story, or I could be vulnerable and speak the whole truth, and probably end up crying. I chose the latter, knowing that in that moment, I had the ability to provide hope and inspiration to any number of people listening. I had no intentions to share this private moment any further than with the woman in attendance at the first Sanctuary Girl Grand Social, however, again, I am presented with an opportunity to inspire others.

Not only did Cheryl ask me about my personal brand, but she also asked me about the ministry work I do with Eastlake Church inside Donovan State Prison. Eastlake Church Donovan has become my home group and my church of preference. Although unconventional to some, it is a place for me to serve, to be inspired, and to grow deeper in my faith far beyond what I could do inside the four walls of a church.

Please take a few minutes to listen to my interview, and if it inspires you, please share with others. This is a piece of my story that until last week, I’ve held very closely to myself. However, the time to share is now. Stay tuned for an amazing opportunity to help Eastlake Church Donovan regardless of your location!


The Wedding That Never Was…

Photo credit:  MIO Photography

Photo credit: MIO Photography

7 years ago I would have gotten married today. It's something I don't talk often about, but today, I will. I thought I was in love and found the one. I had a wedding planned, a venue booked, a wedding dress purchased. I was pretending to plan this fairy tail wedding, but things were far from perfect. Even though I didn't want to admit it at the time, I was being taken advantage of, for everything I could possibly be. My home, my stability, financially. I provided a responsible home for him to have visitations with his son. I supported him financially, all the while I thought he was working, when in reality he was "pretending" to go to work, just to return home after I left. I put all the deposits down for the wedding. I spent years upon years dreaming of being a wife and a mother, and looking back now, it was apparent I was more “in love” with my dreams coming true then I was in love in that relationship.

And, after I learned he was cheating on me, and called off the wedding, I lost everything. Not just the relationship, and the money, but I lost myself. Having to call of a wedding was embarrassing. I felt like it reflected negative on me and the type of person I was. I felt foolish, unworthy, unloveable and heartbroken. As if it wasn’t hard enough to end the relationship and deal with what comes along emotionally with a break up, I had to cancel the venue, the photographer, the dj. I had to continue making payments on a wedding dress that I no longer had a need for. And… I had to tell everyone.

How could someone cheat on me, when I had given them everything. It wasn't long that I spun into a pretty dark depression. A depression that literally had me detach from everyone and everything I once enjoyed. I remember days where I would feel like a zombie, just staring off into space. I disconnected from family and from relationships. I felt empty. I felt alone. And, for a period of time, I remember turning to wine in an effort to literally drink myself to sleep. I literally wrapped up my entire view of self worth based on someone who was using me and didn’t deserve me. I know it now and knew it then, yet somehow let being cheated on completely define who I was as a person- completely unworthy of love.

When I finally went to a doctor, and started medication, my family had a lot of mixed emotions. My father wasn't supportive of me being on anti-depressants, simply because of the negative stigma that mental health has. My father, also uneducated, thought that because I was on anti depressants, meant I was suicidal, which was not the case. If you’ve read “A Cry for Help Meets A Broken System”, you’ve heard me talk about just how difficult it is for a person experiencing mental health to take the step for help. So imagine, working through my own stigma and barriers to go get help, to accept medication, and then hearing my father disapprove, it made things even harder.

I share this today for one of two reasons. Firstly, if you are struggling, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. And, it will get better. Had I gotten married, I'm fairly certain my life would be very different. I wouldn't have Bluebelle, I wouldn't have so many amazing people in my life that came after, and I wouldn't be here in California. Life happens for a reason, a reason we may not always be able to see or understand. His path leads you to where you are meant to be. You know the cliche expression “Faith Over Fear”. It’s not so cliche when you think about it. Sometimes we just have to trust. We don’t have to know the when, or the why… but know that things happen for a reason and that reason tends to lead to bigger and better things far beyond our imagination.

Secondly, May is Mental Health Awareness Month, and it's time we NORMALIZE mental health, and accept that it is everywhere. If it doesn't affect you, it affects someone you know. People aren't choosing to be depressed, to be anxious, to be psychotic. And, many are afraid to get help simply because of the stigma. We need to ban together to support one another. Smile more. Be kind. Say hello. Reach out to a friend, just because. Say I love you more.

You not only need to take care of others, but you also need to take care of yourself. Self care is not optional. It needs to be a priority. If you are like me, and struggle to make yourself a priority, then I urge you to begin scheduling self care into your calendar. Studies show you are much more likely to do things written down and scheduled, so if that’s what it takes, grab your pen and planner and get to scheduling! Positive self talk (positive affirmations) is another great way to take care of you. I have some subtle, and not to subtle ways to affirm myself on a daily basis. Reminding myself of my worth became so important to me that I got it tattooed on my wrist as a permanent daily reminder. Other days, I stack on my Sanctuary Girl “I AM Collection bracelets” to remind myself messages like “I am Loved”. Whatever it takes, take the time to affirm yourself and those around you.

Open Door Day with Sanctuary Girl

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If you haven’t already heard, Sanctuary Girl is a new direct sales company that launched the end of January with a mission to equip, empower, and embolden women to share their faith stories on a global scale with a product line and an organization that stands behind them. When we launched, we began with 300 Ambassadors, and this Sunday, we are preparing to open our doors to another 500 Ambassadors as we continue to grow!

On Sunday April 14, 2019 at 4:00 pm EST we will begin our rolling Enrollment Process. Those interested in joining should be prepared to spend approximately five to ten minutes on the website and will need to have accessible their shipping address, phone number and social security number. You will also need to select the name for their replicated site. Every Ambassador gets to choose what is listed behind their sanctuarygirl.com/_________ website. You cannot use something that another ambassador has previously chosen and you should keep it simple and easy to remember. Think personal branding!

In addition to the above information, you will need to select one of our two enrollment kits, the Inspire Kit for $99 (plus tax and shipping) or the Influence Kit for $159 (plus tax and shipping). Kit contents include:

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Inspire Kit:
25-pack of catalogs
25-pack of Quickview catalogs 
25-pack of share the vision/hostess flyers
SG CarryAll w/floral compact
SG CarryAll pouch
Fearfully & Wonderfully Heart
Silver Antique Dome Key
Rubies Lightweight Locket
Purposed Key 
I Am Sanctuary Girl Armored Up Bangle
I Am Chosen Leather Wristlet
I Am Brave Pillow Cover
One Black Velvet Necklace Bust
One Black Bracelet Pillow

Influence Kit:

Inspire Kit PLUS:
Isaiah 54:17 Shield
Filler beads in SG brand colors
GrayTone Stone Cross
1 Additional Black Velvet Necklace Bust
1 Additional Black Pillow

When you are ready to join (Sunday April 14 2019 at 4:00 pm EST/1:00 pm PST) you will go directly to my website ( JOIN HERE) and confirm that you see my name listed as the Ambassador. You will then click the Join link (where it currently says Join Waitlist). You will then proceed through the enrollment process. If you have any questions at all during this process, please do not hesitate to reach out to me!

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Once you are officially an enrolled Ambassador you have so many things to look forward to in addition to your very own direct sales business. You can expect a welcome call and invitation to a closed Team Facebook Group as well as a company sponsored facebook community. You will also receive an invitation to Sanctuary Girl Academy to help you successfully launch your business. You will receive training not only from me as your leader, but from the company, as well as your fellow Ambassadors who have been successfully running their Sanctuary Girl business over the last three months. You can also look forward to hearing about our incentive program for new Ambassadors, Success From the Start.

Remember, our rolling enrollment process begins Sunday April 14, 2019 at 4:00 pm EST and will include the first 500 Ambassadors to join. We look forward to not only working with you, but welcoming you into this faith based community of sisters (and brother’s) of Christ.

Returning to Church... A Year in Review.

A year ago today, on the first Sunday after New Years Day, I stepped foot in church again, after being hurt from my own church almost 20 years ago.

I was working with my mentor, who had been talking to me about restoring my faith. About giving church another chance, and not judging all churches by the actions and behaviors of my previous one. I remember her saying “You need to get out and meet people, and church can do that for you”.

She asked me to research churches and that she would attend “online” with me. In that same week, I saw an ad on Facebook for a church here in Imperial Beach, and they were starting a new series called “Alt, Control, Delete”, basically doing a hard reset. This caught my eye, because it was what I was working on with my mentor. On that weeks call, we were having difficulty connecting. We ended the call, and what I didn’t know, was she had to reset her phone before Able to call me back. We got through the call, and I told her about the church. That’s when she told me about the phone reset. She said that’s it, there’s your sign, go to that service!

That week, one year ago, I sat in the back row, crying to myself, as I listened to the pastor speak directly to Me. “God loves you. No matter what you think of yourself. No matter what others say about you. God created you just the way you are on purpose, and he loves you”. Words I so desperately needed to hear... that I was loved.

The last year has been surreal. I’ve connected with Eastlake Church Imperial Beach , gone on a mission trip, helped my local community, traveled out of the country to serve, walked into confidence in my passion, and signed up to be involved in the prison ministry.

I owe my mentor a lot. I know that it was God working through her, but without her patience, her authenticity, her showing up and loving me, believing in me, and walking WITH me on my faith journey, this last year would look much different.

Now, it’s her turn. This weeks service was titled BEST. YEAR. EVER. I’ve watched her step out on faith, turn her fear into confidence, follow her purpose.... from a thought to a dream, to reality. It has been pure joy to watch this process unfold, and an even bigger honor to be on this chapter with her as one of her Regional Leaders for Sanctuary Girl, the newest direct sales company. It is a task I do not take lightly, and will be sure to honor her and Gods trust and faith in me every single step of the way.

The world needs this. I need this. You need this. It’s 2019 and the world is filled with more hate, self doubt, anxiety, depression, addiction, and judgment than I could ever put into words. What we are about to do is revolutionary. Providing words of affirmation to speak life into people... when the world is speaking life out of you.

The world is ready. I am ready. You are ready. One more day. 
#lovedbyblue #iAmSanctuaryGirl

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Out with the Resolution, In with the Word of the Year!

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With just days away from the end of 2018, and a new year rapidly approaching, it’s time for the dreaded question, “What’s your New Year’s Resolution?” But, what if I told you to say the heck with a resolution! Let’s face it, many people dread them. It’s become an obligation to set one… so that you have an answer prepared for when someone asks you. It’s something we have to do. It’s another line on the to do list. It focuses on the negative, something you don’t like, something you aren’t doing well, something you want to change. Who wants to start a new year focusing on the negative? Even worse, it’s pass or fail… you either accomplish your resolution, or you don’t. There is little room for in between.

Heres an idea- instead of setting a New Years Resolution, which you will probably forget about, push to the side, ignore, make excuses, not follow through with…. what if you identified a word of the year! What’s that you ask? It is one word that you want to focus on for the new year. It helps guide you in your goals, your decisions, and what steps you want to take. It is one simple word, in which you use to stay grounded in your dreams.

There are millions of words to chose from, so this may not be an easy task for some. Take some time to reflect on where you are, and where you want to be. Visualize not just your short term goals, but also your big vision dreams. Trust your gut, for you, your word may come immediately to you. What qualities do other’s see easily in you, but perhaps you don’t yourself believe.

I have been thinking about this for the last few weeks, and I’ve decided to break the rules, and am selecting two words. I don’t think that I can have one without the other, and in true transparency, I am choosing two area’s in which I struggle with the most. My two words are Loved, and Worthy.

Meet Sanctuary Girl. You have heard me talk about her before. In 2019, she is transforming into a faith based direct sales company. Over the last few months, as I have helped to prepare to introduce her to the world, I have been overcome with these two words over and over again. So much, that I’ve used the word “loved” in my personal branding, Loved By Blue. One thing you can always count on from me, is total authenticity and transparency. Like many people, I come from a complicated family. I don’t have a great track record with relationships. The two have left me feeling unloveable more times then I feel loved. Don’t get me wrong, I have plenty of people that I know love me, and I feel that love from them. But, if I am being completely raw, when the people who are supposed to love you the most, unconditionally, walk out of your life, it is often hard to feel anything but unloveable. Which, brings me to the word worthy. How does one feel worthy of anything great, when they feel they are unloveable?

When I was designing my brand for my new Sanctuary Girl business, I had a vision. I wanted to create a place where everyone felt loved by someone. A loving space of like minded women. A place to be celebrated and valued for who you are, regardless of what hat you are wearing. I also wanted to create an atmosphere to teach and encourage self-love. Because, I know that in today’s society, women have more reasons to not love themselves, than they do to love themselves. I also felt it was important to be reminded of the love that is provided to us by God, so much that he sacrificed his only son for us. I remember, one year ago, when I went back to church for the first time in years, the pastor spoke about God’s unconditional love for us. Hearing those words, I sat in the back of the church, crying. I don’t even know why, other than it was words I’ve longed to hear. Then, I cannot forget my sweet rescued dog, Bluebelle. How something so little, can love so much, is beyond my wildest imagination. I truly believe that Bluebelle was sent to me to fill the voids in my life. This little snuggle bug provides me with unconditional love, and more love than I can recall feeling in more years than I care to admit. My hope in creating Loved By Blue, is to make sure that everyone experiences a “Bluebelle kind of love”.

While feeling lovable, even by myself, is still a work in progress, it’s a great place to focus on for the upcoming year. I want to focus on improving my self love, and believing that I do have a lot to offer, and that I am lovable. More importantly, I plan to focus on believing that I am worthy. Worthy of that love, worthy of success, worthy of opportunities presented to me, and worthy of achieving my goals.

I challenge you to select a word of the year. Chose something that challenges you, yet resonates with you. Make sure the word is visible. Put a picture on your phone. Write it in your planner. Use it as a screensaver on your computer. Write it on your mirror. And, I may even be able to help you wear your word in the form of jewelry. I am excited to share with you three collections of jewelry from Sanctuary Girl, providing opportunities for you to wear your word daily, be reminded of it, and encouraged to live out that word. Please let me introduce you to the “I Am Collection” (bracelets), the “Keys Collection” (necklaces) and the “Statement Ring Collection”. If your word is any of the following, let me help you wear your word: Beautiful, Blessed, Enough, Fearless, His, Loved, Worthy, Brave, Breathe, Courage, Dreamer, Grace, Love, Purpose, Faith, Peace and Believe.

Happy New Year. May 2019 bring you all the love, all the worthiness, and whatever your word is, and may this year be your best year yet!